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20070401 - sunday afternoons & coffee

greetings. guess what? i got my hair cut! even though i kinda swore off getting my hair cut in america. i kid you not. it's not an april fool's joke! hmm..don't think my haircut went that bad. looks fine, so far.

my blog's got this cool gizmo that can see who views my blog and where they view it. kinda neat, considering it narrows things down to countries or states all across the world ;p maybe this sounds psycho but i know who's reading! i'm watchin you watch me.

k enough of that. today my mom asked me why i don't blog like i used to. what she means is '"why are you bloggin bout rubbish now? you used to blog bout deep, insightful stuff! make yourself seem intellectual. now? now you sound retarded". i think that's what she implies anyways. (heh i know what you're thinkin mama! i'm your son!). hmm..but yeah, i do blog differently. why? i think it's because nothing conflicting is swirling about in my asian brain.

i think last semester there were issues and choices that i made which i thought were right; only to realize they bothered me still, and i couldn't really put them in a bag and drop it off at some deserted bus station. but i guess i've kinda resolved and straightened things out since then. though not agreeable with some, i guess the fact that i'm more at ease gives me reason to blog the way i am in person - qwirky and retarded (again, qwirky with the 'w' cos i am wayniq!).

so there's the reason for me bloggin bout random nonsensical stuff. maybe people do wanna read bout mopey/deep stuff sometimes huh? hmm lemme try...

was chattin with elizabeth luei 'bird bird' the other day (eh bird, kill me if i misspelled your surname!), and she was tellin me bout how it is being an asian in australia. it's definitely tougher than being an asian here (or maybe it's just because i'm fortunate enough to be in an area where asians have been around for a long enough time). she's been keeping up with her netball game in aussie, unlike me cos i've been bumming around without tennis. and from what i gather, she's the only asian in the team and her teammates don't really hide the fact that she's asian and they're not. that's bound to suck for anyone who's different from the majority!! but the thing is, she's not giving up but continues to go at it. cool huh?

i guess resistance to something brings about suffering. and suffering's different from pain. some events may create physical pain, but they do not create suffering; resistance creates suffering and that makes things hard. so i guess resistance; resistance to give in to taunting, resistance to do what you feel is right against what you are told is right, causes pain and hardship. who ever said choices and life was gonna be easy?

so there you go, deep thought of the week. i don't think my brain's capable of repeating that on a daily basis!!! okay...need something to loosen up the brain cramps and let retardness creep in. i think this picture....................