Alright, probably a long overdue post. What's been happening so far hmm..
Meeting friends, eating, chilling out, bumming around, going on mad car rides. Oh and i'm still hanging on to something i have to pass to David. Argh. Can't find the time bro, sorry!
Good enough update? Lazy to go into details! But it's been fun. So far. Plus tonight promises more fun. Can't wait to meet up with the tennis dudes&dudettes! Think almost everyone should be there and that's great, but for some reason i really wished jason were here. Just a few individuals short of feeling like the best team all over again :)
1.5 weeks gone, 1.5 weeks to go.
"It's mindnumbing to think of yesterday, I'd run to you now if I could but things have changed." - Second Place Victory, This Day & Age
I'm going back tomorrow! Tomorrow's the dayyyy. I'm delirious (as someone would call me that)....
DEEEE-LEEEEEEEEEEEEE-RRRRREEEEEEEEEEEEEE-USSSSSSS
Gotta wake up, get up, get psychology done and dusted, make my way to the airport, make my way to New York, make my way to Bangkok, make my way through Bangkok for 4 days and make my way back home!
A compelling or constraining influence, such as a moral force on the mind or world - pressure. To be undecided or skeptical, to tend to disbelieve and distrust, to regard as unlikely, that's doubt. The condition of being insufficient or falling short, decline in strength or effectiveness - failure.
The instinct to run, to back away, or give up, to need, want, reach, steal, the feeling to always want more, and to take more, the loss of breath at the sight of a car accident, to drive by, never being able to feel satisfied, and to reject anyone who tries,
Got done with math today, so that's one down! 4 more exams to go.
And that's one day down, 5 days til i meet up with the family in Bangkok. 9 days til i'm back in sunny Singapore.
I should really stop doing this counting down thing! Can get quite annoying huh?Anyways, i think this is what the exam period does to you - you check out weird youtubes.
Here's one;
YOU HAVE TO WATCH THE NEXT VIDEO. FREEKIN COOL STUFF!
Henry David Thoreau once wrote: 'Live each season as it passes; breathe the air, drink the drink, taste the fruit and resign yourself to the influences of each.'
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No one likes exam periods! Maybe some do, but not the larger of the world's population! I'm pretty suree of that. For me, it's always the same recurring motions that i go through during exams. The same motion that alot of people probably go through as well.
The motion of knowing that the exams are around the corner, knowing that as every hour passes, it's another hour closer to the exams. But here comes the trouble - it's hard to get the ball rolling! Hard to sit down, study...and while you're at that, it's two times as hard to continue studying. But it's funny because no matter how much you don't like studying, once you get past the first hour and a half, you tend not to stop studying. Quite freaky!
But i guess that's how every season is. Whether it's tournament season, exam season, holiday season. You unconsciously resign to the influences of the season.
The good thing is - studying season is usually followed by holiday season.
postscript: c'mon niq! 5 days, 5 papers. One more exam day over and done with is one less day of exams. And i should probably try to start studying for today.
New friendships, new songs, new experiences, new scenery, sort of a new life, new weather. That's what happens when people move forward. Everything is new. Moving forward is something that happens whether we like it or not. But the thing that makes moving forward so unnerving, uncertain, unbearable..is probably this;
Every step forward you take, something is left behind. But sometimes the only way to move forward, you have to go back.
"Let it come down, everyone has gone, leave it behind."
Since we're nearing the end of the year, i'm gonna sum up my favourite tunes of the year. Even though i should essentially keep this until it's nearer to year end....but i think i'll forget by then. So here goes, my top 10 over the past year! All major earworms when i was still in Singapore by the way, not including songs that i've got more recently (which are really kick butt anyway).
Top10
Number 10: Jack's Mannequin - Dark Blue Number 9: Augustana - Boston Number 8: Turn - Close Your Eyes Number 7: Jack's Mannequin - Bruised Number 6: Jimmy Eat World - Kill Number 5: MXPX - Quit Your Life Number 4: Relient K - Which To Bury, Us Or The Hatchet Number 3: Snow Patrol - Chasing Cars Number 2: Jimmy Eat World - Polaris
and.......
Number 1: Paris Hilton - Stars Are Blind
HAHA JUST KIDDING!! Number 1 song of the year,
I felt for sure last night At once we said goodbye No one else will know these lonely dreams No one else will know that part of me I'm still driving away And Im sorry every day I wont always love these selfish things I wont always live... Stop it...
It was my turn to decide I knew this was our time No one else will have me like you do No one else will have me, only you
Youll sit alone forever If you wait for the right time What are you hoping for? Im here and now Im ready Holding on tight Dont give away the end The one thing that stays mine
Amazing still it seems Ill be 23 I wont always love what Ill never have I wont always live in my regrets
Youll sit alone forever If you wait for the right time What are you hoping for? Im here and now Im ready Holding on tight Dont give away the end The one thing that stays mine
Youll sit alone forever If you wait for the right time What are you hoping for? Im here and now Im ready Holding on tight Dont give away the end The one thing that stays mine...
Totally kick butt song with alot of meaning. I like! Though the undertones the song may be kinda sad and depressing...what to do la hor? What do i think this song means? Well, my take on it is.....prrfttt i'm not telling. You wanna know? Ask me :) Oh and the song is on the playlist of the music player on my blog by the way.
postscipt: I got an A for X106!! My business presentations class by the way. Like, clear cut A! So, i'm a happy camper tonight.
Everybody knows you don't get what you planned. Everybody runs away from what they don't understand. Everybody hides away the guilt of their youth. Everybody wonders why nobody tells the truth. The real truth, not some sugar coated thing that passes off as truth. Everybody knows that everybody wants.
And when everybody adds it up, they've lost more than they've won.
Sometimes it's best to tell everyone what they want. The truth. The real truth (not sugarcoated while you're at it.)
The real, the truth, is unchanging.
There you go! Is that reason enough for you to tell me the truth? :) you know who you are!!! hahahahahahhahaa.
"Regret comes in all shapes and sizes. Some are small like when we do a bad thing for a good reason. Some are bigger like when you let down a friend.
Some of us escape the pain of regret by making the right choice. Some of us have little time for regret because we're looking forward to the future. Sometimes we have to fight to come to terms with the past, and sometimes we bury our regret by promising to change your own ways.
But, our biggest regrets are not for the things we did, or said -- but, for the things we didn't do, or say."
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I'm not the best person when it comes to dishing out words in real life (though i don't have any problems letting people know how i feel when i'm online - dishing out the crap, yannoe what i'm saying? heh). Maybe i say too much, maybe i say too little. But that's just me. Guess the ones who i keep close know me and look past that flaw, if you can call it a flaw. Because, sometimes, saying too much (or thinking too much and thus saying too much) can get you into the same neck-deep crap that saying-too-little brings about.
Thinkin 'bout it, though you can say alot of things, it doesn't mean you should.
postscript: Got my presentation outta the way, think i did well. Counting down the papers til i leave :) Manchester United are through to the next phase.
Thanks for the ride to the airport, My head got stuck out of the window. And it felt so good cos i've never had that kind of luck on my way home.
When i got out, you were there knocking on my front door. The cold gets in the things you wear, it's so good, it's that time again.
Thanks for stopping by the river so i could run to take it. Of all these days we make, here is one to remember: The first day of October.
It doesn't mean much. We never had a chance. We're out of touch, The space between us spells it out.
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Killer lyrics from Limbeck - The Sun Woke The Whole State! That's a sunset in Bloomington by the way. Forgive the shakiness!
Finals are in a week! Oh wait, it's already here for some people. Oh well! I've got my final presentation for Business Presentations class tomorrow (phew!! it's gonna be over soon for ONE exam). Then i've got another week to worry and fuss about and i'm home free! Just gotta get through a math exam, telecomm and soci exams on the same day (my 2 worst subjects), an accounting exam and a psychology exam on the lastttt day of school. From there on out, i'll have to deal with 18 hours of air time, 14 hours of waiting time....and i'm not gonna count the time i have in Singapore & Thailand, it's gonna be a hell lot more worth it than a putting a certain number on my stay.
Someone (you know who you are) from back home said to me that i'll be done with my exams soon and then i can have my holiday;
And i said, "No, it's not my holiday. I'm going back home."
"There is no despair so absolute as that which comes with the first moments of our first great sorrow, when we have not yet known what it is to have suffered and healed, to have despaired and have recovered hope.'"
How about the despair of not knowing if you have, or ever will, recover from our first great sorrow?
It hit -11 deg when i went out for my 8am class, though weather.com said it's supposed to feel like -15deg. Really cold stuff NO JOKE. But i whipped out my winter jacket and walked around like a miniature michelin man. But the cold still managed to creep inside the jacket, so i felt a weee bit cold. But not as cold as some other people! Especially guys who think they're cool and just walk out in their hoodies but ooohhhboy you can tell they're suffering. Stiff arms, frowns, quick steps, rosy cheeks and all that good stuff.
But my face did get numb. Could have insulted any girl on the road for the fun of it, get slapped, and not feel a thing! But nah, didn't do that.
us at the peak of our cuteness -.-
Seems like my punk ass roommate tries too hard to be funny. Both of us joke around with each other kinda well. Yannoe? The insulting banter, the racial jibes, the groundless taunts. We can take each other's crap kinda well (at least so far that is....), even though i threaten once in awhile to staple his balls to his nose one of these days. But sometimes he just annoys the crap outta other people in the dorm (especially the dude opposite our room) and he thinks he's somehow 'higher' up than the other guy. Prrft. Fulla crap. Quoting one of the guys in the dorm, VJ said to Pawel (the roommate): "I seriously hope someone beats the crap outta you one day, Pawel". hahahahha, judging from the people he's ticking off, i think i'd have the room to myself soon!
Everyone thinks they're doing fine with their lives. There are people who will tell you there is always something better. But if you don't know or care you'll be alright - because it's modern to be stupid.
Everywhere we go, whatever we do, whenever we do it, we face pressure. We probably face pressure every waking moment of a day. When you wake up each morning, you face pressure. Each morning brings pressure, to choose to wake up or simply give up and succumb to the ease of mind sleep brings. Sleep brings dreams (nice dreams while i'm at that), but when you wake up from those dreams and realize they were but a dream, you'll still face the pressures of life as well as the mistakes and/or blessings of the decisions you make when you meet those pressures.
Today, i woke up and moved on - started my day off with a battle i won.
"Everyone hears what you say. Friends listen to what you say. Best friends listen to what you don't say."
Sometimes it feels really good to have someone understand you and sense things about you that you never let on in the first place. I guess everyone's found that 'best friend', and if you haven't - better late than never!!
Made another good investment today. Bought matt pond PA's album today. Good chill music which surprisingly, isn't one bit mopey. Ahhhhh! But apart from going through the album right now, i'm pretty much bored to bits. Supposed to get some studying done today but who on earth in the right frame of mind would wanna study on a nice chill lazy saturday like this? Prrftt. Here's matt pond PA.
Oh right, and i came across this on the web today. Someone please tell me what this means? Wild guesses would do fine too..
I saw a close friend of mine the other day. He said "How come you haven't called me?" I said, "I can't call everyone I want. My new phone has no 5 on it." He said, "How long have you had it?" I said, "I don't know. My calendar has no 7s." -- Steven Wright
Proof that Tom Cruise is on the dark side of the force
Earwormmmm alert........ MXPX - Grey Skies Turn Blue
Got to watch another United game! The 3rd United game i've watched in row and it feels gooooooooooooood to get the chance to scream/yell/holler/shout at the top of your lungs once in awhile. Twice today actually, plus many other semi-hollers whenever United had a chance to score. Soo let's just hope Newcastle lives up to their quality (considering the players they have in their squad) and stick a few on Chelsea! Preferrably Rossi coming on to get a winner against Chelsea. If he does that, he'd be a cult hero around Old Trafford without a doubtt!!
Good weather today! Went out and just walked around with some of the dorm guys. Nice quiet day on campus, guess everyone's sleeping in today. Majority should be recuperating from various degrees of hangovers considering last night was Friday night and probably the last chance people get to party before the finals kick into full gear. Not windy today! Think yesterday's weather was pretty much a freak thing. Was watching the news over dinner and found out that a winter storm hit the midwest (where i am). Chicago's pretty badly hit...30cm of snow. St Louis got hit pretty bad too. Weird thing is that Indiana is right smack between those 2 cities and i don't think any real bad snow hit us. Owell, not complaning!!! Hmm, rumour has it that Singapore is snowing too...according to winnie (hey winn!!! oh yeah winn, i found thinning scissors here but darn expensive.)
Mom just offered to knit me a scarf today. Heh, it better be nice! Don't wanna be caught wearing something like this around...
What's with the scarf?!?! Think the person's trying to create some kinda sprinkle effect. Like this..
And my brothers are gonna go for the Muse concert come January time in Singapore. Hope they have fun! Vern's gonna be some groupieee.....hurhur. Vern ah, groupies are NOT cool!!
A groupie.
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I got a first class ticket to a night all alone and a front row seat up right by the phone. Cos you're always on my mind, but i hope i'm not running outta time.
I knew today would be cold. I knew last week that today would be cold. I knew today would be the coldest day of the week, seeing that the other days before today had temperature hovering between 15-20 deg.
But i had NO clue, NO warning, NO experience dealing with the wind that came with the cold today. Let's just put it this way - yesterday i said the wind was gale force, today..i put the wind in the category of Hurricane Big Momma. The wind was crazy strong! Had my bagpack on, walking back to my dorm, head hung low so the wind wouldn't get into my eyes, hands in my jacket pockets. And outta nowhere, Hurricane Big Momma hits me from behind and i could feel the wind pushing me along, could hear it whistle past me. FOOOO! Yesterday it was my umbrella, today it was my bag. You see, i only had a notebook, pencil case, wallet and some pieces of paper in my bag. So the wind decided to try and steal my bag. Had to hold on tight to my bag or it would have grown wings and took flight. I had 3 layers of clothes on - a t-shirt, sweater and a fleece jacket...but the wind swoooshed through all of them! That was how strong it was. Aiyah, you would have to be here to understand.
Plus there was light snow. But even though light, it was good enough to numb my face down. Yannoe how when it's cold, your nose starts to get runny? I could feel some mucus leaking so i attempt to wipe it off and i thought my nose dropped off along the way while i was walking or somethin. It got so numb that i couldn't feel it! Cool stuff in a sense. When i get out of my dorm in the morning for class, walked for bout 5 min, looked down on my brown jacket and saw alot of specks of white. Thought it was dandruff for a moment before i realized that the white specks were floating around the air. So yep..snow.
So...the gang back home in Singapore hung out tonight. Sounds like they had fun! But truth be told, i felt quite annoyed that they had fun. Not that i'm being totally selfish or anything, it's just that i use to be caught up in the fun as well and it'd be nice if i was in the mix. Not necessarily last night, but on any given night or day right now. But i'm still glad they had fun! Because i know some of them really need some letting loose right now. Heh. Ahhh but my friends, don't fret, i'll be back to spoil your fun in no time! So if you guys thought you were gonna have more fun without me...sorry i had to burst your bubble.
Ahhh i do not look forward to getting out of my dorm and jumping from the frying pan (because it's nice and warm in here) into the err...ice. But what's the worst thing? I don't even know the half of it....
Rumour has it that this isn't remotely close to how cold it gets in Bloomington. Uh oh!!!!!!
